I don’t think anyone knows this, and
they should. I have the greatest parents ever. Hands down. They are incredible
and loving and giving and just amazing. I have been with them since the end of
April and I have loved EVERY minute of it. I will be the first to say that I
was SERIOUSLY scared to come back home. I really haven’t been home for an
extended period of time for years, and so suddenly coming back for the summer
married and pregnant really scared me. (who knows why, but it did) Well, I
couldn’t be happier. (Minus the fact David isn’t here) I am loving all of the
quality time and bonding.
We have had so much fun. It has been a blast buying baby clothes and other items for little Kellan and figuring out the room situation, preparing for the hospital, sewing, doing work around the house, etc. My mom and I have been able to get a ton of things done in preparation for the little guy and one of the things we did was sew. We sewed 2 nursing covers, TONS of bibs and burp cloths. At times, I felt that we were in a sweat shop because we had this routine down and while it took us a while we did it! We still have a lot of sewing to do, but for now we are content with what progress we've made.
Along with sewing and 'nesting' for our little guy, a wonderful friend, Sister Alred, threw me the baby shower of a lifetime! I was so surprised at the love and support of so many friends and family. The theme was "She's about to pop" and everything that was there was around that theme. It was seriously so perfect! And to top it off, Kellan was seriously SPOILED-he got so many cute clothes, books, soap and lotions galore and oh my gosh, he's set for months! I'm still in shock about how loved and supported I was that day-it was incredible and I can't wait to use everything with my little guy!
One thing I've noticed while being at home is how many little gadgets my dad now has. For example: Growing up my siblings and I would help my dad prepare the boat for the summer. I remember being outside for hours waxing the boat at least 2 or 3 times, and prepping the bottom of the boat with this stuff called Skat. We would work on that boat all day long in the sweltering heat and dad would be there helping us, and also correcting us and making sure we did a good job. Now, I'm not saying that I don't appreciate that he did this for us, I'm just saying that when I go outside because I hear this unknown rumble going on and see my dad with this hand held power waxer that literally takes him 20 min to do the whole boat, I was in shock. Well, not really, I guess I just felt a little tinge with the fact that he could have gotten this beautiful machine years ago and helped his weakling children. haha
After a few weeks of being home I had the greatest treat ever and David came to visit! Wahoo!!! Seriously, The whole time I've been here I've been having contractions of all sorts and my mom and I have been so scared that little Kellan was going to come early! But, thankfully he didn't. David arrived and I was large and ready to explode! We had a ton of fun and it was great to just be together again. To be honest, I had the hardest time when he was gone and was ready to spend every minute with him!
Well, the whole reason David came was to be with me for the birth of our first child, Kellan. Every day we were on pins and needles and we waited...and waited...and waited. Seriously I had like 18 different melt downs just dying for the little guy to get here. Poor David was such a trooper with dealing with all of my emotional break downs and also dealing with my PUPPS (don't worry, there's a post about that as well) and wow, he's just wonderful. I love him so much and I was just loving life with him-even if it was waiting for our little man. Thankfully, Kellan came! (wahoo and a post for that as well with details) It was just so great to be with our son, together, and even though it was just for a little bit, it was perfect and I wouldn't have had it any other way. (for sure have David stay longer, but I'll take what I can get.)
David and Kellan :)
After David left, it's been hard, but it's been crazy since then so I've been lucky enough to not be able to dwell on it. Kellan and I have just been hanging out and I'm getting used to being a mom. Seriously a lot harder than anyone tells you. But, I couldn't be happier-this little guy is my pride and joy and the love of David's and my life.